Sunday, November 20, 2011


Just a quick update. Surgery went well, I am back home again and feelingn good pain wise. It's an adjustment that is for sure. I keep thinking I will get used to the fact that both my breasts are gone but it's hasn't happened very quickly. ((smile))

When I can keep my thoughts together (when I can cut down on pain meds) I will get everyone up to speed. Pray for my family, Darin is tired and Zane doesn't understand very much of why I can't do much.

Friday, November 11, 2011

How can you help?

Surgery is planned for next Friday November 18th. Surgery will be around ten in the morning, mid afternoon when I am in the room. They are expecting me to stay a couple of nights unless I am good then might leave on Sat.

First, please cover us in prayer. The upcoming surgery is going to be hard on us emotionally. We know there is a cost, and this is it but it's still hard. Second item of prayer and praise I guess is that is also Kailey's 16th birthday! A new step of independance for her, please cover her in prayer for safety and guidance.

Freezer meals are welcome! One thing I craved after my last surgery is cookies so cookie dough would also be appreciated. I can't do nuts or peanut butter.

Second, you can sign up to see my calendar where I will be posting when I need help for appts etc. Keep in mind that right now Darin is going to many of my appointments but as soon as we get moved into the treatment portion of this I will be looking for more help. I LOVE that so many are wanting to help right now!

Here is where you can sign up. You have to register because there is going to be sensitive info on where I am going to be, where Zane is etc for our safety the info isn't out there for the world to see!

I will be blogging more on my experiences this week later on. Kinda feeling overwhelmed right now with everything I THINK I need to get done. Honestly, I think as soon as I get the house vacuumed and dusted I will feel like it's all under control. It won't take long but I always put it off. Have a good weekend all!

Monday, November 7, 2011

To touch the hem of His robe

I haven't had much to post in the last week. We have been praising Him for the good news and praying for guidance to get through the rest of the treatment. We have an appointment tomorrow with the plastic surgeon and with Dr Cody. 

Big decisions to make. 

What provided Zane his only source of nourishment for three months might have to go so they don't kill me. This won't be a complete restoration. As advanced as treatments have progressed against the fight against breast cancer, they aren't complete. 

Matthew 9:20-22
"Just then a woman who had been subject to bleeding for twelve years came up behind him and touched the edge of his cloak. She said to herself, “If I only touch his cloak, I will be healed.” Jesus turned and saw her. “Take heart, daughter,” he said, “your faith has healed you.” And the woman was healed at that moment. "

Jesus can and did heal from a distance, she didn't need to touch His cloak but she took action to pursue Jesus so she might be healed. 

The woman who was not allowed to worship God in the temple for 12 years still had so much faith in His Son that she reached out for Him. 

A woman in Jesus' time, not allowed in the temple and even without "being unclean" was not valued in society, but Jesus valued women. The unclean, the undervalued, the broken, the sick are His specialty because of their faith they reach out for their Savior, their Healer. 

YOUR Savior, YOUR Healer. 


How many times in the last four weeks have I yearned to reach out and touch His robe and have complete restoration. 

But then again, maybe I don't want to be what I was before.

Wednesday, November 2, 2011

PET Scan results

Had the PET scan yesterday. Pretty easy, was injected with radioactive isotopes, took an hour to pray and rest, put on a bed that when into a short tube (though when your torso is fully enclosed it seems like a longer tube. It didn't last long though until my head was out and they just scanned my body. Then was given instructions to drink lots of water, flush the toilet twice after using it and not to hold any infants. Easy everyday stuff......YIKES

We got the results from the PET scan. The cancer did NOT spread past those lymph nodes on the right side. There is some cancer left in the breast area and I will need another surgery. We are meeting with a plastic surgeon next Tuesday to get a clearer look at my options, one that we are looking at is a bi lateral mastectomy which would be full removal of both breasts with reconstruction. We aren't taking this decision lightly though we are making quite a few jokes about it to keep us laughing (instead of worrying :) Please pray for us as we move into the treatment stage.

Treating cancer is not easy but we are choosing to look at this as a trial like many of you are facing, there are people out there we are mourning a loss of a loved one, have a child who is sick or having problems just being a teenager, depression, anger, family problems, marriage problems, dealing with unforgiveness either with someone else or not able to forgive themselves.

Jesus is there waiting for you. When you think you can not see Him in your trial, look behind you, He is holding you on His lap. You are His and whatever you are facing has to bow down to the King of Kings because if you have Jesus in your heart, you are pure gold! Set down what ever is holding you back at the foot of the throne, Jesus can take it for you.